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Thursday, May 20, 2010

What a Week! Make it Stop.....

I hate this feeling! I am having a very challenging week. Everything from financial trouble, work trouble and NO TIME FOR SLEEP trouble! Right now I feel like sleep is #1 on my list. Although it is certainly not as important as work or finances - which kinda go hand in hand. I feel as though I could collapse! I better not collapse. As some of you know, I work nights. I like my schedule a lot. It works with my life right now. Scott and I both are very blessed to work from home ~ and work separate shifts so we do not use child care. However, Scott has training in DC this week. So, where as I would normally get off work at 8:30 and drag my tired butt to bed, I now have to get off work and take care of 2 very WIDE awake and chipper toddlers who seem to be morning people. The last 2 days have been ok. But I think exhaustion has caught up with me! I feel sick. And delirious. 2 more days. I can do this.
Financial troubles. That's a tough one to deal with too. I just have to admit it: I am bad with money. I have to make some serious changes. I have to keep a spreadsheet. I fell behind and was too afraid to talk to my husband. I wanted to fix it myself. That's a heavy burden! Well, we finally did talk (yell, cry) about it over the weekend and I feel a bit better. I still have to fix things and I will. Work is... huh. I don't know. Probably should not talk about work on my blog. Maybe I am too sensitive or paranoid. I feel like I am being picked on and criticized. But maybe, just maybe, it is all part of my delirium. (is that a word??)

I will be parenting from the couch again today:)

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hang in there chickie. You can do this! You're a wonderful mother and wife and you can do ANYTHING. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. And yes . . .delirium IS a word . . . lol . .. love and miss you much ~Lucy~

Lisa said...

I'm leaving a message here and on facebook to make sure you get it:

Do you need any help? I could come by and entertain the twins for a little bit while you nap. You could even bring them by my house. Seriously. I'll do it :)

Katie said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear this and I know what you mean by "active morning people" and financial trouble. But hopefully you can get some much-needed relief soon. This summer will be better b/c I would love to plan some play dates so you can have an extra set of hands. ;) Let me know if I can do anything, though!

Blasé said...

I don't like it when you have that feeling...

Amy said...

Lack of sleep can do horrible things to you. I'm praying that everything will hold together!

Angel said...

{{hugs}} Hope you feel better soon and are taking precautionary measures to feeling worse. :-) You know! Try getting in some exercize if you can. It will help you feel better. :-)